A day in the life......

Hello again, its been a long time since I last wrote.. I just want to warn those of us who now rely on Technology, unsuspectingly aware of the loss that can consume us... "What on earth is she blabbing about?" I hear you say. Well let me tell you. I like any other have a camera phone, a digital camera all my music and pictures are now kept on an electronic device. Where as not to many years ago we all collected Cd's or even earlier 'vinyl' and had cameras which took film that we took to the chemist or the photo-shop to get developed. With all these we created rubbish yes and loaded our cupboards etc. up with pictures that were hardly bought out and Cd's that we played very few of. Then 'Technology' arrived and we got Mp3 players then Ipod's then Iphones , computers, Laptops and now Ipads and Kindles. We got mobiles phones then smaller ones then Bluetooth and cameras and flash drives and ...... You know what even I can't keep up to date w...

Recently my son starting going to Boys Brigade. Last night, because its running to the end off the season for this club, they held an awards ceremony. Everyone has to come they said because all of the members will be getting something from a certificate to a badge to a trophy. OK i thought I will take him, bearing in mind that this is a religious club and i don't really do religion much these days. Be there for 7pm they said (normally bedtime for titch) but me and titch went. I left him with his group and i went and sat with some other mum's and dad's i know that were there. Bless them out they plodded and sat down in the front of the pews all full of expectation. The leaders did there talk and bless him (my son) he sat really well through all the boring stuff. When it came to the presentations he was the second one up and received a certificate, which he was very proudly showing off to everybody. When we got home later, whilst reading him his story and giving him his bedti...

This morning I and laughed and smiled at something I noticed my young son does, he loves to draw and write. Pretty normal you think? Yes .... but he does it everywhere. The other day we were travelling in the car, so he went in my bag and got some paper out. It wasn't until later I found out he had my diary. !! OH NO ...but no this was O.k. On some of the pages he drew me little pictures in the spaces allocated to the days (ah) some people may think how annoying will stop me from using that space. But no not me I will work around it, because every time I look at the page for that week I will smile and remember him and how sweet it is... Then I noticed in December (not quite the Christmas week) He has written he a little story about him self and our family.. Sweet or Annoying? I know which .... because this is one of the most stressful weeks near Christmas, I know when I look in my Diary I can see this and SMILE ......

Ok I know its been a long time, my life is good...... yeah you say!! Today I had my 1st (proper) interview since June 09.... Proper you ask! Well what I mean is a proper company not just an agency, that then send you off after asking the ins and outs of a 'hens ....... ' lol. With a we'll see what we can find for you, but before you came in and registered on their books they had an amazing amount of job oppertunties that were just perfect for you.. (They are just damn annoying) But hey, here I am, with 2 .... yes 2 proper interviews this week, 1st was for a Receptionists job PT (will be perfect if I get it!) 2nd Data input/processing FT which even if they offer me that I will accept... Why when what i need is a PT job.... Well because I need to work and I have all these qualifications going to waste, by doing the job I do. Which I love mind but money is the guiding factor and the fact of I never really wanted to work with kids then come home to more... Sound bad? LOL Proba...

It is 6.18am I can't sleep well at the moment. Why? you ask... Well because in a little less a month I have to attend court! yes again. This time may if I'm lucky be one of the last, the run up to the end. Also I have an appointment to attend a clinical phycologist, today! But your not crazy... well lol some people may say I am ..... No it is so I can sort out my head, my feeling of guilt and uselessness, return my head to what is normal (is there a normal .. we shall see!) But back to the matter of court. A whole day is allotted for this as this is the day I have to stand up for myself in court, prove that my husband was a bully, control freak, abuser and quite a few other words I won't say on here as they are rude.... apart from COWARD ! He has the right to ask his 'barrister' to cross examine me! To provide verbal proof of the mental abuse I have suffered for years, the physical and mental abuse my children have suffered for years... Now your thinking surely ther...

After travelling to pick up my daughter from my sister's, as she had been staying there for half of the summer holidays. To give her something to do and help entertain my sister's kids (as they had just moved from Newcastle to Liverpool). All the customary stuff out the way, unpacking (as i decided to stay over a couple of nights), catching up, cuppa's, food etc you know the kind of stuff. Oh even the greeting of the dog, who by the way always goes mad to see us..... Well children in bed, we chatting, as you do and about half hour after midnight my Bro-in-Law takes the dog out for her last walk before we all go to bed..... Pretty normal yes hang on I'm getting there.... Well 5 min possibly less later he comes back in 'come outside' he says to me, 'and bring your keys' OMG i thought whats happened. So i do as i'm asked and go outside, to find some little Scouser has only gone and smashed my rear windscreen! Did they try and take anything? NO! Did they...

Being a single.... ahem.. girl!! These days is not all its cracked up to be. Getting back on the market, is not quite so simple these days. Well thats wrong getting on the market is easy, possibly the easiest bit. There are so many 'markets' out there with all the social sites and dating sites, then the pubs, supermarkets and basically anyplace you want to try to pick up an acquaintence. But actually picking up an honest guy who really wants to get to know you, who has no weird hang ups, or can't get over the 'ex'. Is really difficult, I've met a couple of weirdo's, some nice guy's (who I still speak to). But not really met anyone who's 'rocked my boat' and hit the normal button... (wrong I did but hey still not ready for a relationship, I got). Back to step 1. So this point I start thinking to myself, Is It really worth carrying on? Shall I just give up and live the single life? But then I really would like to meet someone who I can have a l...